The thing is you’re at an age in your plenitude so I can’t avoid putting myself in your shoes or even looking back to when I was in my 20s.
Do you know what was my most exciting activity at the weekends? To go to visit my psychologist on Fridays evening. That’s it.
When coming back home, there are some Fridays when I felt so empty. I literally had no social web or any activity to do with people and if I had, I already say no to the possibility to go out and socialise because I couldn’t. I couldn’t face to people. Too much anxiety and fears. I only could do activities with myself. So I focused on my studies or job. My music, listening or reading about topics I liked. Those days were mainly Psychology, Politics and rock music.
Maybe going out with my closed family to the country-side. A birthday celebration at home.
That was all.

All it was pretty frustrating. I felt a real impotence. I had too much to give as a person and I needed so much to have some kind of connection. In the end, my psychologists helped me to grow contacts at the schools I was working. I coincided with a friend of my childhood who helped me a lot to share some activities with her and a friend of her.
Then, I meet my partner online.

I know how difficult is to meet people, especially, the right ones for you. Many people at this early adulthood already have their boyfriends and girlfriends, their careers, their own circle of friends.

I understand your frustration. It’s all I can say.