I fell in love with a guy, he broke my heart, and it took about eight months to get over it. I fell damn hard I guess.

Don't expect overnight feeling better, you're going to need time to get over it. But in the mean time, get out and doing something. Meet new people, expand your horizons and crap. ^_~ (No, I don't mean find a new boy friend) It will help to get out and living, don't dwell on it.

And just my two cents, but I agree when you said the relationship was toxic, he sounds abusive. Fact is, a lot of abusive guys have their nice and loving moments too, not just hurtful ones. Distance yourself, it was his bad don't blame yourself for it.

You'll be ready again some time to have a new relationship with a hopefully more sensitive guy, good luck and keep us posted okay? You're in for rough sailing, but you can get through it, I promise.

Don't cry once the sun is gone, cos tears won't allow you to see the stars.