serious question.

Someone asked me today what I wanted as a Christmas gift from them.

When I said I didn't know, she suggested a bath (because I'm really struggling with my shower now), and she thought it might be easier

Unfortunately, the size of me makes it virtually impossible to use a tub anymore- I would worry about falling or even having a serious accident

What I really want for Christmas is a body that doesn't ache with pain every god dam second, but I can't ask for that

Not really sure what the next best thing is