Psychotic Depression Assessment Scale

Thanks for that! I do not seem to fit the criteria. My personal experience is just uncontrollable crying and terrifyingly negative thoughts. I think the cancer diagnosis has unfortunately shut down my coping system and now I am at a loss to recover- I already said my goodbyes.

For all intents and purpose, I should be out living life and celebrating. Instead I have become housebound for the last 3 months and find it extremely difficult to engage with friends and family.

I will take your advice and cut out the cannabis again (it's only been a week or two of 1 or 2 vape puffs and maybe some edibles). It was an experiment to see if it would help me concentrate more and enjoy certain things like reading or playing (which it has a lot!). Unfortunately, sometimes it DOES make me slightly paranoid and downward spiralling.

Thanks again for your generosity and sharing. I think I am processing my PTSD.