Finished work for the week. I had 6 hours of sleep on Friday and Saturday night - This night I had 8 hours of sleep, so I feel better today.

I see my psychiatrist tomorrow.. I hope there's no problems.. I've thought about so many things to say to him..

Should I tell him that I think "Life is an illusion, dream, hallucination - And I have awareness of eternal dissociation?" (Isn't that widely known anyways?)

I want him to keep my meds the same, get 3x months of refills.. I'm doing the best I've ever been (Of course with constant severe struggle at times). But I don't think I'm really depressed anymore.

The progress that I've made (With my cognition/mind/consciousness/life) is unbelievable (In comparison). I shower every day, I exercise sometimes, I wash the dishes, clean the house, hygiene every day (After I wake up, and before I go to bed), good uninterrupted sleep, at least trying to attend to my goals..

The big thing is my thoughts.. So deep and philosophical, spiritual.. And it's been like this for years and years - But just intensifies.. I'm so balanced.. I get a little quasi-psychosis now and then, but it always goes away..

He's going to ask about drugs =[ I have to hide them.. They keep me safe.. I rarely use ket anymore (The longer I've used it, the less frequently I've wanted to use it...)... It helped with depression, and overcoming DPDR 100%. I don't even need 10mg of olanzepine anymore.. That's insane! I still take the 3mg Invega pill every evening at 5pm.

I missed a dose of the 75mg pregabalin (For the first time), and at night, I was severely negative and suicidal.. I rarely take phenibut anymore (And if I do? It's 1/10th - 1/5th of the dose that I used to take, every day).

So yeah, I'd like to say some things.. Just not sure what.. I'd like refills, and then for another good 3 months.. See what happens then.. I have ZERO heart palpitations anymore (And those have been gone for over 6 months).

It's pretty simple.. Life.. I want to learn about Buddhism for now, and learn about how different people think about different ways of achieving enlightenment.. And to meditate more..