I kinda was just like "eff it" if my doctor says I have uncontrolled depression I need to do something about it. So I got out of bed and took a shower for the first time since Thursday and went to my sisters for dinner. I don't even come out of my room when they are over let alone ever go to their house. My brother in law made a couple kinds of weird soup and I had a small bowl of each. He thanked me for coming since they have noticed I haven't been around much. I guess? I feel better. Honestly I still just feel like puking my guts out from nausea but I just took my Geodon so we'll see. I'm going on an overnight trip tommorow. Nothing exciting. Hotels have become a drag lately. My brother always snores and watches TV and Youtube until 1AM. But whatever. Then we get our house painted and fixed up on Wednesday and that will take about 2 weeks. Then that brings us to Thanksgiving and another 2 days of traveling and hotels. I used to like excitement like this. Maybe I really am just depressed.