Hey L well I heard back from the gyno and I made an appointment to talk more about this after I've consulted with the hematologist and the other place. I wish the other 2 would call me back! Boo! My anxiety is still high but has lessened a little bit now that I know I have the appointment to talk more and she understands that I don't want to rush this, a little bit but still high. Ugh.

My sister doesn't understand where all of my anxiety is coming from about this.... she said if it were her she'd just do it. I'm not sure where all of it is coming from either. Except, I just don't want any of this but it's happening regardless just like the thing in June, I accepted that, how come I'm so ****ing anxious over this?!