My psychiatrist asked me "When you feel suicidal, what emotion/s do you feel? Angry? Sad?"

And I said that I don't really get angry.. I didn't say that I felt sad..

I should have said that I feel "Severe mental pain/agony".

I should have said that. I have a bit of it now, but it's okay.

He replaced the clonazepam with diazepam - So I can split a 5mg pill in half (2.5mg), when anxious - Or to relax my heart so I can sleep at night sometimes. It's not much of a difference (Just more effective, muscle relaxing). I told him that I brought 60x 10mg pills back from Mexico, and used 40 in one year - So about 4x a month on average.