okay, last night was amazingly evil in all the aspects that i can only imagine to comprehend.
before i goto sleep, i close and lock my door, unhook everything that has electricity running though it or anythingthat produces light, and cover my window so it'll be pitch black. then i turn on my fan so ican concentrate on the sound it makes. my T suggests that i use the fan as a way to clear my mind so i can go to sleep with out any interruptions.
okay, yesterday, i got into a fight wit the voices in my head bc i didnt want to do something they wanted me to. so, rt when i was about to go to sleep, all of the voices started screaming. it scared the hell out of me. so much that i actually screamed. there was like 7 voices that yelled rt in my ears. my ears still hguirt from it.
but thats not where it stopped. i started having a schizosode and the voices made it where i couldnt concentrate to stop it.
before i knew it i was going crazy and there was nothing i could do. even though it was pitch black i saw things. saw black figures and when i looked at them they didnt like it at all. and i saw lil white things and like these lil orbs of light. it scared me like crazy. i pulled the blankets over my head and closed my eyes and waited until morning. i didnt get any sleep.
the voices are still mad at me. i need help. what can i do to make it stop. i tried talking to the voices but they wont say anything but stupid remarks. how do i say im sorry, i just dont want this to happen again. it really scares me. im just a kid. i dont like this at all. please help me.