I had another good day. I'm tired now and in bed. I am still worried about what my PT has in store for me next. I am trying not to focus on it and I am trying to ignore stuff and just chalk it up to the depression. And focus on the stuff I've been doing to improve it. But today was good.

I'm glad my diet is going well. I do not believe in weight loss surgery. That surgery is scary. So many people can die from it and the risk for complications is huge. Plus I don't think they allow people with mental health issues to get it done.

I've been pissing like a racehorse all day even though I've just had a bottle of water since 9AM. I'm hoping its just the iced teas I drank this morning. Or nerves. I'm terrified of internal PT. Like nightmare scared. I don't get these people who want something to be wrong with them. Its like they have a fetish for medical devices or something. Sick.