I'm so glad you mentioned that assertiveness training might be helpful for me a couple times back. This class I found that I started today, I think is going to be helpful. As I told you, I plan to start practicing with H as soon as I learn some stuff. He's out playing golf today, but... this evening after I've read some more of the material.

I also got a call from the naturopath yesterday - did a quick phone consult and they said they wouldn't be able to help me with this particular issue.

But that's okay. I feel like I'm taking action - with the class, and with requesting that consult even though they can't help me. Taking action is good. It reduces my anxiety a little. I still don't want The Thing, but I'm not goin' down without exploring my options. I have a message in to the hematologist too, but they haven't called me back yet. That might take a few days as I know the oncology patients are higher priority, as they should be. I can wait a little; I don't want to rush into getting The Thing anyway.