I hit a low point today for a few hours. I also suddenly became paranoid that she was going to show up at my work or at home.


I'm struggling with it that, I really loved her, and that can't trust any of the good things she said or did for me.

There were a few profound compliments, that when I look back were said at times we weren't close. So... That means they probably weren't genuine.

I can also look back at times that she had short stretches of acting very different than what I was used to... Which were probably early times "the mask slipped".

I'm a very trusting person, and now I'm less so.

RDM