After 8 years don't you think it is time to trust yourself?
It is insane to have to worry about feeling too good or too bad.
WE GET to have normal reactions to things and not blame our being bipolar to jsutify our feelings.
We get to react and have ups and downs.
I can relate to feeling worried that I might be getting a bit worked up over things....I do this too.
But I am trying to enjoy life and not to worry.
My hubby is there as a safety net....
I have spent too many years worrying about going manic...I have not been manic in 5 years...so I think it is safe to say that I am stable now....to not have it be my identity...to define who I am.
I take as little meds as I can and yes I am bipolar 1 as well.
my mood stabilizer is lamictal
I also take a small dose of geodon.
I recently stopped taking ambien for sleep it was causing groggyness in the mornings.
It has taken a while to accept the fact that I am having rebound insomnia...and that I am not manic...so I jsut rest while unable to sleep...but that is getting better.
I encourage you to jump and actively participate in your life...it is time to engage fully and pat yourself on the back for maintaining a job and have a family etc.
Life is good isn't it?
bizi