I got sucked in and we did amphetamines talking together every single day (Often for hours at a time) for ~2 years. I don't regret - But she pushed, like *wanting to live me* right away etc..

This happened before. But AvPD autist friend is genius, and means no harm.

Now I'm doing my own things mostly.. I don't think I'm a sexual weirdo though - But those people like me cuz I don't judge and am empathetic.

But she needs to get off speed, clean room, exercise, go outside, socialize... And not.. Code all day. We're gonna do some Python in an hour.. I like learning, and she's very loving.. I said no sex though from beginning. So that upset her, over and over again.

I was tortured. Cuz of my empathy. Only now I realize that boundaries are needed. What ever you do, it can't be as bad as me - Although I've been constantly constructing my reality with philosophical and spiritual thoughts, overcoming DPDR, and getting off olanzepine.

I would still spend time with my family, go on vacations, hiking, working, attending to goals (But important here - The goals weren't attended to.. So I have to make priorities). She's just a friend now.. It will stay that way.