My day has been one stressor after another. First I was explaining to my superintendent that a neighbour is a menace and had assaulted me not long ago. I asked for the security footage to be reviewed twice. The landlord made an excuse and basically made it sound like the cameras don't really work anyway. The police did nothing to help. The neighbour made up that I was stealing from her, and had threatened to kill me while punching and kicking me while I was on the ground. I threw a punch after she attempted to hit me with a garden hoe. She made the excuse I was getting in her face while I was walking away. Didn't even step close to her, or make a threatening gesture- she just came at me and swung it at me with the intention to hit me. How else should I f*cking react?

I am afraid to take out my trash. My landlord seemed happy that I have considered moving to get away from this place. It has been nothing but stress living here. Between the creepy superintendent he hired, and some of the neighbours it's been really actually scary. It's like no one takes me seriously and no one thinks I am at risk, and because I seemed to be the only person the superintendent targeted I feel afraid. I feel like if I defend myself reasonably or even fight back at all I'll be in trouble. I was walking around with a 2lb dumbbell in case they try to jump me again, but I can't do that because if I hurt them, then I am trouble.

On top of it my job is abandoning me with issues and not paying me for the trouble and it makes me fear that I am about to be homeless. I feel trapped and I feel like I am to blame.