I appreciate your perspective on this "so called new friend" ...

Your remarks about my over reacting ... I often do that, very often. I sometimes know that I'm going off the chart and rein it in, but even then, I've kind of blown it. It's like black or white with me, all the way or nothing. If I let myself react to some of the irritants of daily life, it's likely that the reaction will be too strong. Most of the time, almost all of the time, I just bury it and steam inside instead of letting others see the reaction.

Your read on the way that story was drawn out is exactly on target, it was like one thing reminded me of more details and so on. My incorrect perception of his display of trust sure lengthened the story, and there seemed no good place to end it.

And as far as telling and retelling ... I don't retell in hopes of healing from the ptsd or the event. I don't even tell the stories. These you read about in my posts are first time, just recalled.

Shud I not post them? They are not for sympathy, just trying to break the silence as they occur to me.

T.