I didn't sleep well last night. Both yesterday and today gave/gives me a feeling of "I don't know" how to name it ... May be a feeling of nothingness is the right word?

I tell myself that I have to do physical exercises because my brain is lazy. I feel as if I lack something. It is not emptiness, more some sort of a feeling that something is wrong. The author of "The Upward spiral" tells that I am not lazy, but that one part of my brain is, and that part needs me to help it to be activated. If not I will feel worse ...

I need to dress and go out. Small steps are better than no steps. The author, Alex Corb, Ph.D in Neuroscience, tells me in his book that even if my feelings are OK according to how my brain functions, I am the only one who can take action and help the dull parts of my brain to overcome this "stage".

Well, I will try to be like a mother who nourishes her child: I will bring "the child" outside and train it to walk while encouraging it, one step after the other.

I do like this professor. He is telling us that parts of our brains are so and so, inherited from our fore-mothers or forefathers, and that is how it is. No need to be ashamed! But our brains are trainable (with or without medication) ... There is HOPE. And it is that tiny bit of hope we need to understand to be able to not sink deeper and deeper into a downward spiral. To try is all we can do ... Yesterday I Iet this dull feeling tear me down. I sat here ... Today I am going to put cloth on and go out. It doesn't have to be a long walk as long as I try to do what neuroscience has found out nowadays.