Thanks, I have been eating for the past few days.. Like, forcing myself not to look at calorie contents.. This is to please my bf and my counsellors and stuff, to make me feel better, for making them happy.. Yet.. I'm.. Not happy because I want to be thinner.. I'm a size 8-10 trouser and 10-12 top, but despite people telling me that this is really quite far below averag (the trouser size), I still want to get thinner.. I want to be on at least a size 8 bottom...

So.. I'm back into restricting my calorie intake.. But.. I know that I will stop that as soon as me and my bf get back together (we went on a break so that we could both sort out our depression and get back into a happier, healthier relationship), I will start trying to eat properly again, I will make sure I see an ED specialist, but for now.. I just need to lose 4 lbs more and I'll be over the moon, I'll be as happy as ever!!

This isn't terribly bad, because I think it's still in the average area of BMI calculations..

Am I being really stupid? Or can I do this and still be safe?