So we did the math and I'm stuck here for about 3 more years. Unless something drastic changes. I've been depressed for about a year now. H wants me to go to the psych urgent care because I have no psych or t and my meds run out in February. I brought up making dog harnesses but they cost about $40 to make and I don't have that money. H wants me to start coloring again but the organization of the supplies is to much for me. I dropped fries on the floor and I almost cried. H thinks if I want something bad enough I'll go outside to get it but that's just not true. He's like "I don't want you to be a shut in" well "I want a house I'm comfortable in". I am going to be a shut in because I can't deal with snow/ice, I don't deal with people close to me, and I hardly can get down the stairs but here we are. I haven't showered in awhile because I have to ask for help with everything and that's just one more thing I have to ask for help with. Laying in bed doing nothing I don't have to ask for help but I'm also getting weaker. Sometimes I wish I lived in a nice assisted living residence. I'm just floating by here. But at this point I don't know if changing my apartment will help. I know it's only a matter of time before he leaves. I have no energy for anything sexy or fun.