The 5mg of olanzepine helped. I still take Invega pills.

Imma sleep..

Stress is unreal.. I try to be lazy and self-assured (By delusion) for my own sanity.. Idk if...

I can handle.

This all. Of life. It used to be so different - I try to do genius things, anyone can do genius things.. With their specific talents. But I just go for everything.

Bad at prioritizing.. It's pure insanity if you think too deeply, and I think much deeply, with speedy thoughts. Overthink until paranoia happens (Like my dad).

My dad will visit next week. We'll do fun things. It'll be good. I can't believe it all... Both of my parents neglected me, and ex step dad abused, controlled, manipulated me. All in isolation. It's what happens to many. Just gotta... Live. That's why people live. The world is imperfectly perfect. So are all humans.