so I have an appointment a week from tomorrow to talk about getting on some kind of meds for anxiety or whatever even if its just short term until the early december procedure is over. i don't want to go back on meds i didn't like how they dulled me out but maybe there's something newer that won't do it as much. it's been a long time since i was on anything. i just know i have to do something. i can't stand how i feel rn.