So I wrote a long post and it's gone.

So I called the psych clinic and they are escalating my case because I haven't seen anyone since May and they have no idea why. I'm soupose to see a certain person. And when they saw that they went from I can't help you to escalatling it.

We tried to figure out a different layout but the house is to small for one. Victoria is going to continue school and look for a job. We're going to try to save money for my service dog. Then save money to move. And the only reason moving isn't number 1 priority is I don't think we can save enough in 10 months to move. Saving $200/ month for us is already hard. We'll see what services are available when I see the Dr.

H still thinks I'm depressed because usually I'm the optimistic one and I'm focused on all the things I can't do. We're going to open up another bank account so I have access to it because although he doesn't like me killing him off in my what ifs and what happens to me when x happens l do need access to money to pay bills when he can't. At this point I don't even know what bills we have.

Next month we are going to try and solve the food problem for me. Get things I can microwave when no one is available and plastic silverware and paper plates and bowls. He didn't realize I refuse to wake him no matter how hungry I am. I'm usually up by myself for 4-6 hours in the morning. He only realized I ate in the morning because I've been ordering a bunch of breakfast sandwiches and freezing them and I'm all out. I only have 1 a day so it's not like I'm full but I'm okay to wait.

I'm going to try and fix my able account so I have money going into that automatically so I have to have money solely for my needs because I don't ask even when I need it. H wants me to at least slowly organize my art supplies so I can use them and put my markers at least on my desk. Basically set it up so it's inviting. I also have to take my iron because some of my symptoms may be anemia.

I need to start looking on the bright side. We're not homeless and all our bills are paid. I basically have to learn to pay myself first.