I don't have scabies lol.
I guess I'm just frustrated because I've figured out how to survive in my own way, and you guys are trying to teach me how to survive better, but I want to skip to how to thrive. Fck surviving better, that's boring. Surviving chaotically is fun. Thriving is fun. Surviving without feeling like I'm the best me I can be sounds like...like inpatient. You're safe, yeah, but it's boring as fck, you can't do anything "fun" good or bad, you feel like you have to be a slave to staying safe. At least that's what it seems like what you guys want me to be. A slave to safety. That's just not me and it never will be. You're talking to the kid that had like 3 concussions because helmets don't work, but speed is more rewarding than safety.
Hopefully we'll have a legitimate appointment next week!!!