I'm becoming teary about G's recent email to me! I wrote him an "Are you there" email. It's a simple email that's seeking withness and understanding. G just responded so sweetly. He said he is there, and he was so understanding with his mirroring and confidently reassured me that we could keep me safe. He signed "with you".

Lemon, you're right that I shouldn't be ashamed of my tears. L says it's part of my beautiful multitudes. AND this is so not like me.

I don't think this sensitivity is depression or due to my med changes. I think it's my body and mind's protection wearing down from months of "anticipatory grief", as L called it. I don't like being so sensitive. And I don't like feeling any connection to G especially right now. And yet, his email was just so reassuring. Ugh!