Hi Davi56... I'm sorry you feel like you're trapped. I understand where you're coming from. For me it's like I"m on a roller coaster but I never know when the hills and drops will come. I spend most of my time worried about how I'm going to feel and never know from day to day what my mood will be like. You can't let this ruin your life. I'm working right now at taking charge of my moods. If you're in control, the likelihood of being "too happy" or "too sad" is decreased. Yes, there still will be times of sadness and mania or hypomania, but not as often and usually not as severe. Hopefully you can find something that works for you so you're not feeling trapped by bipolar disorder because that's just not fair. Take care!