today i saw my grandma and she acted like nothing was wrong like my uncle had done nothing wrong... it hurt because she made me feel like i was exaggerated that the things he was doing weren't as bad as i made them out to be. i love my grandma but that hurt and i am angry and that scares me because i don't feel anger is safe. i was angry that she babied him and ignored me tried to make me keep it to myself... it makes me question whether or not i am just exaggerating and maybe it isn't a big deal ... but it feels like a big deal to me ... i told him to stop and he didn't listen and i am tired of people hurting me ... i know i am not a good girl but the counselor says i don't deserve that and i am trying to believe her ... but i feel so yucky on the inside but she says it isn't because of something i did, which my grandma claims but rather that he is the one with the problem that he is bad.... i just don't know i am sooooooo confused. mostly i feel angry angry that it happened angry that my parents and my grandma told me it was my problem and that they didn't even try to help but i should have known they wouldn't because they never did..... they never stood up for me they never took my side they never helped me.... they hurt me instead.....