I’m definitely feeling better after my ECT treatment but not 100%. Still have self harm thoughts percolating and just overall bad attitude. I’d say my depression went from a 10 down to a 7 or 8. I have another treatment scheduled for two weeks just in case. And I can always get in earlier if need be. I don’t want to miss another day of work but if it has to be, it has to be.

I’m a bit more active today, I’m planning on making cookies later. I was going to make pumpkin muffins but I know I won’t eat them all. I need to go for a walk too, it’s gorgeous out. Unseasonably warm, about 80 degrees in the afternoon. Then tomorrow we’re plummeting down to seasonal temps of mid-50s. Enjoy the warmth while I can.

Hoping to stay active today to keep the negative thoughts at bay. I do have a bit more energy. The ECT dr said to call my pdoc. Maybe a med change is in order, but I think I have to give the lexapro a chance to get back in my system. I have 10mg pills too, I was on 10mg for a short while.

Idk. Gonna take it easy and give myself some grace.