I have not accepted any of my illnesses. I've been kicked out of several schools for performance. Still only gave up when aid ran out. Still taking about going back or applying for scholarships for school alternatives. I'm constantly thinking if I could only get through schooling I'd be able to work and support my family. And I'm not that disabled to have all these problems. I see it trickle down to my daughter if she could just finish school and find a job she'd be okay but honestly that's probably not the case. How do you accept it but not lose hope and the drive to try? I don't know if I want to be normal because then I lose parts that make me. I wish I was more capable. I wish I could do all the things others think I can do. I don't know how. But I understand.