Acceptance..4 of the 8 duckduck definitions use the word "accept" - sweet.

I guess it's somewhat related to being in agreement, possibly favorable but in my opinion I've always thought of it more neutral. Maybe "valid" is as far as I've thought of it.

Recently I've been experiencing symptoms. And Ive been consciously trying to get some sun. Otherwise, I don't think about my disorder to a point where it stops me. I think of my symptoms, consequences of my actions in the past, and such as energy to mitigate risk in the future.

Once I think about something and have a general plan, maybe I even need to write it down if it's specific enough, then I forget about it until it comes up again. What I mean is once I feel as though ive "figured something out" to the best of my ability, I move on to the next issue whether it is analyzing a social situation at work, working to understand my girlfriend, or simply taking care of obligations.

The more you can free up mental space the better. This doesn't mean forget it forever. This means do your best to understand, make a mental note of your conclusion, and move on for the moment.

I'm sorry you're having troubling thoughts RT - but I am confident you can overcome. Why? Because you're even being self aware about it and asking good, tough questions