J,
tomorrow I'm gonna look like someone ran over me on a bike ride you recommended I go on and then dragged me in the woods and left me there for a week, but then let me shower and get dressed (hopefully??). As "clear-headed" as you were surprised by last week? Not sure about that one, but I think so. You'll be happy to hear that a few things that normally would trigger rage in me did not cause me to scream, punch walls, swear at innocent people, or start fights with anyone. There was some yelling and cussing over the past week, but there's definitely been a lot of progress. I feel hope despite everything that's going on in my head, my body, and my environment.