I'm getting night time anxiety but I went shopping this morning and phoned my mum this afternoon. I've always had a difficult relationship with my mother but it takes the pressure off my sister if I check in with my mum and pass on messages from other family members.

I have the feeling my sisters think I'm retired rather than sick and caring for a sick partner but what they imagine to be true isn't really my problem. At least I wasn't too tired today and didn't have much pain.