I started taking my medication again. I realized I'm afraid of life and it's just too hard. I don't know if I want to go on. I'm under tons of pressure. I mess everything up and think I have Bipolar II or that one that starts with C. Also, soon I will be seeing about partial hospitalization.

I'm so ashamed. Oh and I finally showered today, only like once a week...

I think I'm about done.