I am coping well, although long term I will need more therapy to deal with recent events.


I am watching the Crappy Childhood Fairy on YouTube. I never thought of myself as having CPTSD despite intense childhood abuse from my mother, because I went for weekly counselling for a few years in my early 20s. As if a once-a-week counselling session can "cure" years of abuse!!! I am realizing I am still traumatized and certain behaviours reveal it. I'm lucky to have a good marriage.

I'm also realizing that I need to limit my social exposure to women with children. Mothers tend to judge childless women, especially those who are married but chose not to have kids. I do have one close friend who is a single mom and does not see me as selfish or somehow privileged (she also knows me well enough to know I have had to be a caretaker many times for my disabled husband). But other than her, it seems like some women may judge me and I just don't need that in my life.

Honestly it amazes me that anyone would feel like they have the right to judge anyone else's life choices. I would NEVER judge someone for having kids, and I should not be judged for not having them.