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Originally Posted by comrademoomoo
I find this so hard to wrap my head around. I can't imagine thinking someone else is responsible for something as fundamental as my safety, even thinking about it makes me anxious. I don't trust anyone to look after my safety except me and it has been like this since childhood. I suppose there are situations where we hand over responsibility for our selves, like to a pilot when we fly or to the doctor when they prescribe, but ugh I find it hard to even accept those infrequent occasions. I don't know what happens to our agency if we think others are responsible for us. It is far more reassuring for me to be confident in my autonomy and control, relying on others is extremely fraught territory.
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this is the part of Codependents Anon that i'm having such a hard time with, step 3 "made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood God". i have not yet and cannot yet do it with any permanence. I have made the decision that it is needed, yes, but to actually do it? i have to do it every day, multiple times a day because I keep taking it back. And that's even shaky because half the time I don't trust myself.