I only have 3 sessions left!!! That's it until, hopefully, February.

Look at the pain and grief that many people have here from time away from their therapist: a vacation, a leave, even abandonment. No matter who the leave was initiated by, it hurts! I feel that it's a complete misattunment to suggest that I miss a session.

Who here who has an attachment to their therapist would willing give up a last session to go to a hospital where there is less specific support, being surrounded by strangers, where you're taken away from your few comforts left in your life? For up to 72hrs?!?!

Do I need hospitalization? Probably. But I need my sessions with L more. I cannot get those sessions back.

And a post like this will get misunderstood, I bet. And I'll push some people away, which is what I don't need. What I need is empathy and mirroring and support.

Maybe I need to take a break from here? Here was so helpful 9 years ago when ex-T left. I guess things just change...