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Originally Posted by ScarletPimpernel
I only have 3 sessions left!!! That's it until, hopefully, February.
Look at the pain and grief that many people have here from time away from their therapist: a vacation, a leave, even abandonment. No matter who the leave was initiated by, it hurts! I feel that it's a complete misattunment to suggest that I miss a session.
Who here who has an attachment to their therapist would willing give up a last session to go to a hospital where there is less specific support, being surrounded by strangers, where you're taken away from your few comforts left in your life? For up to 72hrs?!?!
Do I need hospitalization? Probably. But I need my sessions with L more. I cannot get those sessions back.
And a post like this will get misunderstood, I bet. And I'll push some people away, which is what I don't need. What I need is empathy and mirroring and support.
Maybe I need to take a break from here? Here was so helpful 9 years ago when ex-T left. I guess things just change...
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Hugs, Scarlet. I completely understand about not wanting to go to the hospital. Maybe 8 years ago (I was still seeing ex-T at the time), my p-doc was trying to push me to do an intensive outpatient program. It wasn't even full hospitalization. But it would have lasted 6-8 weeks, I think AND the big thing for me was that I wouldn't have been allowed to see ex-MC or ex-T during it. Yes, I would have had many more hours of support per week. But it would not have been with the T's I trusted (and to whom I was attached, particularly ex-MC).
So I didn't go. If I were in a situation like yours right now, I'm pretty certain that I wouldn't have gone either.
I'm really glad your H came through for you and was supportive. It suggests he'll be able to help you through L's absence.
In terms of G, with his being new, he likely didn't know what sort of support you needed or wanted. If you let him know, hopefully, he can be more helpful next time, if needed. I struggled very much with Dr. T not supporting me the way ex-MC did at first, but then as we got to know each other more, he was better able to give me the form of support I needed (though he certainly messed up badly a few times in there).