You're not wrong for wanting a better quality of life and using your resources for that. A good gaming computer especially a desktop can last a very long time and can be upgraded even after it's outdated. My h has a subscription to humble bundle that we will never give up. Non Computer people tend not to understand what a good long-term investment a good computer can be. Same with a phone. I'm 5 generations behind and it still great. My laptop is about 5 years old and still runs well. My daughters laptop is 8 years old and works great it's a thick laptop and heavy but still great. So be gentle with yourself.