I do not have a problem with you, but I do have a problem with being told how to offer my support or my contribution here on this public forum. For what it's worth, I will not be sending you (or anyone) a private message. I do not wish to engage in private conversations here.

This is a public forum and if you choose to post publicly then you should also expect to see and read the public posts/replies of others. Those posts may or may not perfectly align with your needs or expectations.

I understand and empathize with your request for support right now. And from what I've read over the past couple of days it seems that many people are offering their version of support. However, this is not a therapy session and therefore the support from others may sound more like advice than mirroring. It may be encouragement to seek inpatient care in a time of crisis. It may be anecdotes from one's personal experience or therapy. It may sound like a challenge to look at things from a different perspective....it may be useful or it could miss the mark and not be helpful to you at all, but that does not render it invalid. In fact, something that someone offers here may benefit another reader even if it's not useful to you.

Based on your last post, it sounds like you're aware of your own progress over the past 10 years. That is great. I would encourage you to give yourself some of the recognition and validation you are seeking from others (who may or may not be aware of your 10 year history, etc). Some of the most powerful validation we can receive as adults is what we earnestly offer to ourselves.