I have been binging on sugar products non-stop.. I promised myself.. I wouldn't do that... so.. I eat sugar stuff.. pass out.. eat some more.. pass out..

4th of the July.. will also.. be another hard weekend... aniversery of his death...

I am so so so so sick... self induced.. this binging.. like a drug..

How stupid... of me... like my father cared enough.. to even care.. what he did...yet I do stuff.. that almost kills me.. to punish myself.. for what happened...

incest surviors.. should throw... an Un-happy Father's day..