They tell me I do a good job (Even gave me a hug once for doing over what is expected all the time), and I get everything done fast and early. Why do I have to stay longer, when it's not busy.. They want me to meticulously scrub dry grease for 30 seconds per spot, and there's 500 spots (That you can barely see).. On one door, that can be left for a year, and it wouldn't matter - I can do those things not every day, and I find it hard to find the spots, cuz I cleaned them all as far as I can know - I could spend 10 minutes scrubbing, and then I have another hour to kill.. Searching, around for spots.. Confused as **** and overthinking while I'm scrubbing cuz it won't go away, and I panic about eternally not being able to do nothing, but also nothing important either).

Scrubbing the spots for such a long time, makes me frustrated - As if all the "meaningful" work that I've done for them doesn't matter - Cuz they want me to do extra, so they can sit around, talk, and don't have to do something that isn't that important themselves. If it were important, then they would tell me to do it FIRST, above all the other things that are supposed to be important to them. But they don't - And because I don't, they expect me to be obedient - Like my ex step dad, who I've done every little scrubbing and sanding for cuz he was too lazy to do the meaningless **** himself, and didn't fix my god damn car that I bought when I was 16, even though he was a mechanic - So I drove around in a quad bike, and didn't bother getting a license. I had to sell the ****** car.

Why did I even do all of those things for him.... It was torture and humiliating. he wasn't even my real dad and I hated him, he manipulated me, used us for Canadian citizenship, won the lottery and left the next day. He also beat my mom, screwed around on my her while they were engaged, with a 999 dollar engagement ring, even though he made 200k a year. I didn't know until after, and he would protect her from other men, and wouldn't allow her to have friends, like some alpha prick.