I went to the SSA office with my program manager to turn in my pay stubs from work, update my address (for some reason it had my old address) get a benefits award letter, and get a password for my social security account so I can log in and submit my pay stubs online from now on instead of having to deal with going to the office in person. So all that was taking care of in one visit. Next week I find out how much my rent stipend gets decreased due to working part time. So then I’ll have a better idea of my finances.

I have an appointment with my psychiatrist on Thursday and he is going to give me a letter so I can become my own payee instead of having my sister as my representative payee. So I’ll be managing all my finances on my own and everything will be in my name from now on.

My work schedule was posted. Still working Mondays, Wednesdays and Thursdays. Tuesdays I’m volunteering with the cat rescue organization.

I’m gonna make chili today in the crockpot as soon as I can motivate myself to get up and dice an onion and brown the beef in the skillet. That’s really all I have to do. Everything after that just goes into the crockpot and cooks by itself. Should be a good amount of meals out of that. I’m interested to see how it comes out. I can’t remember the last time I had homemade chili, it’s been so long. My mom used to make it a lot and it was amazing but I never made it myself before.

My bf has today off work so we’ll probably watch some shows and play some games together later today.

I really don’t have anything else going on today. Getting all that Social security stuff taken care of is a huge relief.

I already paid for my violin lesson for Sunday. Other than that this weekend I’m gonna thoroughly clean my apartment because it desperately needs it. And I’m gonna put up my Christmas tree. Enjoy the weekend then back to work Monday. I’ve been pretty lost and not sure what to do with myself this past week and a half off work, it was nice the first couple days but lately I’ve just been bored out of my mind and trying to find ways to occupy myself and not knowing what to do with all this time on my hands. I actually don’t like it. I appreciate my time off more when I’m working. When it’s like a day or so. Not a whole week and a half. I got used to being productive and having a sense of purpose and belonging. It will be nice to be back Monday. I know it’s still gonna be stressful af especially because it’s the holiday season and it’s retail but I kind of like the challenge in an odd way I guess. I don’t like feeling stagnant in my life.

But anyway, the fitbit should motivate my to be active. Any time I’ve had a fitbit in the past my general physical activity (steps etc) has gone way up because seeing the numbers on my wrist motivates me like nothing else can. And I got my water bottle, so trying to drink more water. Start prioritizing sleep. Hygiene, meditation, etc.