Feeling anxious and depressed now. My bike is supposed to be ready by the end of the day today. I hope it will be. I miss not using it. I've taken walks instead. It's nice but it's not the same. For some strange reason I get the feeling that the bike is not going to be ready today. I know I should get out of negative thinking. Some have told me that, when I get into negative thinking, then what ever I think negatively about can come true.

I went shopping early this morning. I didn't have enough cash in wallet to get everything, so I had to charge the rest. That rarely happens to me. I felt humiliated. Well, I should get used to that humiliation feeling because that's what this year, since January, has been all about.