My mother has significantly reduced communication with me. My basic needs for food and attention are inconsistently met. She may have emotionally distanced herself from me.
In a random incident, a big fight caused a change in her living arrangements for a week. She lived with a friend or relative.
I was under her control since childhood. I was an extension of her. I received food, love, and a home in return for my loyalty to her, despite the abuse.
Setting boundaries made her withdraw these things.
I'm struggling to manage myself. I'm 19 years old, and I have my dad with me. My dad has put a lot of effort into taking care of me. When I was weak, he made food for me. I couldn't stand for too long due to fatigue from depression. He nursed me back to health. Now, it's time for my emotional development.