Dr. S - So I emailed you again yesterday morning. Based on the conversations I had with others, I thought it was ok. I still think like it was ok I feel like it wasn't. You haven't replied and a part of me doesn't want you to reply until like Monday. I don't want it to be further out than Monday. I was trying to live by no rules and that's not going to work. And I am so sorry for emailing you again so soon. It's suppose to be ok but if I am not strong enough - then it isn't ok - not because of you but because of me.