I'd love to have a normal stable life, but instead it seems I'm trapped in a nightmare that never ends and I keep thinking it's going to end soon. I start a new business, and sure enough every freaking time I find another business idea that seems better. I never finish anything!! If only I could be financially free.

Right now I'm getting close to maxing my credit to $7000 but hopefully I'll start making money in my business. The $7000 debt will surely force me to stick with this business plan to the end. So far it's working. I'm staying on track.

My sister calls about once or twice per month and keeps telling me I need to give up on my dream of being my own boss and get a job at walmart or something. Even my sister likes my latest business idea and says it's the best one so far but then she immediately says get a job at walmart.

Maybe I'm just fooling myself, but it's my decision. It's do or die to the end.