sometimes looking close is really hard... and sometimes it just kind of pops out at you... you know an epiphany of sorts.

last week i was in a peruvian store and they had arrowheads in a little basket for sale... when i was a kid... the first time i cut... i used one my brother found ... i don't know why i had it in my hand ... i just remember being in his closet and my mom's boyfriend was hurting me... i squeezed it into my hand... i was able to go away and not feel what he was doing to me... when he saw the blood he told me i was crazy... and was angry that i got blood on him... it must have been a deep cut...because when i cut on my hand now... i don't bleed very much... i bought 2 arrowheads... i dont know why... that's not true ... i do know why... and i guess anyone reading this knows what my intentions were... i haven't followed through... Lyn