CANDC - I think I'm starting to understand what you mean by distraction to fulfillment. Usually it's just a fantasy at best that is never what I expected it to be.

Also I've noticed when I have a mission, as simple as needing to do laundry and folding before a football game, I focus on that and that helps so much, to your point of making a structure.

Fuzzybeae - I appreciate the hugs

Muddy boots - yeah, emotions can be difficult to suss out. Patience will really help as you alluded to in your second paragraph.

You all are awesome for taking the time to reply!