I'm there with you. My head knows there's no going back. My heart is slowly, ever so slowly getting there.

Dr. S - this is so hard for me to figure out - we spent so much time trying to get me to not be so rigid with my behaviors; to not make unnecessary rules and me thinking that making such rules were some how a defect. Now, when I read about how to get over the loss of a person - end of a relationship or death; they list many of the tools I use to make rules. Maybe I wasn't so wrong after all.

I thought I was ready for a lack of reply or maybe I should say a delayed reply. It has only been 48 hours. A reply may come tomorrow, may come later today, may come next week... and may never come - you may have misread my words and think no reply is expected/desired. I did ask for a reply that at least acknowledged you received my email.

We will see if a reply happens and if so, what it contains.
-me