You too, dear Desoxyn. It only got worse for me. I thought for sure I'd figure out my reality, and there were plenty of times that seemed to happen, but it never lasted. Over all on average the more I learned about my reality the darker things got. It just led to more questions.

There's a happy balance to everything. Philosophizing with friends every so often seems healthy. Becoming obsessed with it and taking it to the extremes was the worst thing for me. Don't get me wrong, taking the academic approach with the academic community seems fine. It's the lonely extremist path I strongly caution against.