Preparing the affidavit was a huge step. She's so, so toxic and damaged.

I'm thankful for this board and you guys.

I'm trying to get to the point where I don't fear her, and I'm not angry at her. She's damaged, injured, stunted... But any pity I show her will be manipulated.

We have mechanical latches on the doors. My son pointed out when I'm stressed I lock and latch the doors. I caught myself doing that today.